A bishop told me in 1955 to stop babbling about a pedophile priest. Another bishop told me in 2011 to stop blogging about pedophile priests. Today, read about pedophile priest crimes at CofA 1-30.
New Research: There IS a connection between people who defend pedophile priests and right wing politics. it's not my imagination. It's Opus Dei, which for 70 years has actively groomed politicians in D.C. with its own OD church and massive amounts of Vatican cash. It's the theme of the book I'm writing online which is linked in the comments below. Linked here is article in New York Magazine from September that got me going, hopefully I won’t run out of steam before I finished writing about this… Whenever I get harassed about my blog exposing pedopriest crimes, the person harassing me is also a wild-eyed Trump supporter. I hope to write about this more, the conclusion is: thanks to Opus Dei, right wingers side with pedophile priests.
My book still in progress: https://cityofangelslady.blogspot.com/2024/09/prologue.html?zx=a462c8fca0949b6aUPDATE Sept 17 See my book
"America sided with the pedophile priests, and soon after, the nation fell"
being written in progress online at https://cityofangelslady.blogspot.com/2024/09/prologue.html
At one point in my life my own father tried to kill me when I was about five, the story is on my blog in cofa2 somewhere don’t want to link it now. Point is when I fell out of the dump truck onto the ground everyone said I died, or seemed to be dead, then I “popped back up” and started running around like a chicken with its head cut off, that's what my aunt used to say. Looking at the time and circumstance, it's likely my dad felt he had to pedicide me to make me stop babbling about Father Horne.
Then several times in my life my behavior got me very close to dead, but something always rescued me.
When I found myself the only journalist writing about the pedophile priests in 2007, I began to wonder, did I really die that day in the dump outside Bartlett Illinois? Sometimes I even wonder if I'm Kathryn anymore since that day; perhaps another entity entered me, knowing that at some point I was going to be the only journalist writing about the pedophile priests whose crimes were at the bottom of all that outrageous behavior, and I’d have to blog about it.
Even now when I don't write about that subject anymore, I feel so COMPELLED sometimes to blog and post comments and point out evil and corruption and crimes against innocent persons. I even started to fantasize at one point, saying-
I'm an eternal journalist, I travel the universe to different planets where I enter and live and work as a journalist / communicator in whatever medium they use there to rid that world of some indecency against life that is taking place there.
And I'm still here on Earth after 76 years so wonder what I’ll write next.
A big part of the pedophile priest story that still has not come out is how the world lost the contributions of people like me. I think of all the jobs I had that I lost because of the weird sexual behavior planted in me by the fingers of a pervert priest. I could have been a contender, instead I'm a broke blogger. I have this incredible gift of a brain that absorbs data and details in seconds and figures out what's happening, I had so many Journalism jobs that should have led to success. I always screwed it up by screwing the wrong person, or rather persons. The brain part is the worst. I could have been so much more I'm so smart and capable, but the behavior caused by sexual molestation at age 5-6 screwed me up before I even got started. “Father Horne he’s so handsome” as mom used to say.
UPDATE Sept 17 See my book
"America sided with the pedophile priests, and soon after, the nation fell"
being written in progress online at https://cityofangelslady.blogspot.com/2024/09/prologue.html
Stormy Daniels said, “I was nine years old again,” when asked why she had sex with Big T when she didn't want to. At age nine she’d been serially molested by a neighbor. She ended up growing up to produce her own porn films. I WISH the world would focus on the child sex assault part of the Stormy D story, how pedophile crime affects the victims for the rest of their lives, so often we wreak havoc with everyone we encounter, until we: “Pick up our trauma and make it a sword” – Angela Shelton.
Looking back on my life, I often bemoan how many jobs I lost, how many organizations made it real clear they did not want me around. For long times these experiences would cause me sadness; I’d wonder what is wrong with me.
Only lately at age 75 looking back on those same times do I realize, bad guys don’t want honest people around. When people are getting away with a con, last thing they want is an intuitively nosey journalist poking around asking questions, and that's what I do, that's what I am. All my life I conjured my way to the inner circles and top levels of places just from a natural born instinct I've always had to dig up the truth and expose dishonesty.Watching Gaza and HORRIBLE things people there are experiencing makes me feel like my little injustice where my sexuality got screwed up is So Insignificant- as bad as it was, thousands of humans are going through ten times worse right now. Humbling...
If Jim Jordan becomes House Speaker, it means the damage and moral sickness from thousands of priests getting away with pedophilia has penetrated into the American zeitgeist and is corrupting and destroying our nation's very foundation.
REWRITE
If Jim Jordan becomes House Speaker, it shows that thousands of Catholic priests getting away with pedophilia did so much cultural damage, it penetrated America at its core and corrupted our nation's very foundation. I think
It does my heart good to see the pedophile priest scandal show up in popular culture, like this dialogue.
“What do you want to do first? Shall we do the interview sketch? Ease ourselves in gently as the bishop said to the choir boy.”
Our work over past decades was not in vain. Everyone now knows what the priests did to us. Line is from “Inside Number 9” Season 4 Episode 2, Bernie Clifton’s Dressing Room, on Britbox.
The first time it happened, I was stunned. In 2012 I was embroiled in the experience of being a pedophile priest victim discovering there were hundreds of thousands of us all over the world. One day I went down to the mail room where residents in the senior housing complex where I lived gathered during the day to chat and someone asked me what I’d been doing, I said “writing on my blog.” I said “I'm one of the pedophile priest victims and I've been writing about those crimes now for about five years.” A guy near me rolled up next to me in his wheelchair and with a scowl and a sneer growled at me, “That never happened.” Then in an authoritative tone of voice he repeated things he’d heard and read, that there were not more than one or two errant priests, that the victims who came forward with decades old pedophile claims were just out to destroy the church and get money from lawsuit settlements.
I stammered, No, I've been researching and writing
about this now for years, I know dozens of the victims, look at this web site
and this web site where you can read about us and the thousands of priests who’ve
been exposed. Type in “bishop accountability dot org” and read about thousands of perpetrator Catholic priests in the database, from A to Z. He
would not listen. He was already certain
that the pedophile priest survivor movement was a hoax. The other residents in the mailroom
watched us and listened and said nothing.
Now as I watch the Alex Jones defamation
trial, I can't help thinking how similar my situation is to these people testifying
today. I've since moved three times, to three different senior housing
complexes, and finally learned that it's best if I just don’t tell anyone I'm a
pedophile priest victim or I'll have to move again. I've been bullied,
harassed, chased around a building, a live bat was let loose to fly around my apartment before
I started locking the door all the time. I've heard those same words from
sweet looking senior citizens who suddenly become like vipers, “That never happened.”
“Those stories in the news are all exaggerated.” “There were only a few priests
and all they did was touch a child on the shoulder.” "Those people are just out to destroy the church."
I'm not narcissistic enough to think my experience
is as important as what the Alex Jones defamation plaintiffs are describing, where total strangers claim the Sandy Hook school shooting in 2012 was a hoax, that the murdered children never existed. But it does seem significant that we share a side
effect of this era of disinformation in the USA, causing the most innocent persons to withdraw from society, hide behind our doors, avoid intimate
conversations with persons we meet. The bullies
are in charge, the liars and maligners with mysterious agendas are winning the information war.
I now live in my fourth senior housing complex in ten years, after bullying and harassment incidents got so bad I had to move from the previous three, soon after I let it slip that I was a pedophile priest survivor. Now I don't mention my blog about predator Catholic priests to anyone, I don't even let people I meet know my last name so they can't google me.
There's a knock on my door just now. My blood pressure rises, I freeze in fear. I'll just stay quiet in here until whoever it is goes away…
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*Can't help thinking that if the Catholic Church had done the right thing and admitted its guilt and made amends to its thousands of victims past two decades, it would have set an example for the rest of the world and, perhaps, everything would be going in a more positive direction all over the globe right now.*
The bishops quoted in the article below are getting away with saying, "There are too many victims of pedophile priests. Paying the settlements is causing us hardship." No One is pointing out, YES there are too many pedophile priest victims. SNAP, the “advocacy group” that is supposed to speak for victims responds with a statement that gets in the news with words such as "solace and justice" and "slap in the face to victims" which could apply to ANYONE anywhere talking about ANYTHING. Since SNAP ruffles no feathers, they get quoted.
We're talking about eleven year old boys being sodomized and six year old girls being finger banged (me) by Catholic priests, and advocates don't want to be too abrasive. No one uses descriptive language. Every news group that reports this story will euphemize it as being about “clergy abuse” so someone who has not read a lot about these crimes thinks maybe a reverend patted an altar boy’s behind one time.
I have no voice anymore; my blog was sidelined for ruffling too many feathers. Other writers on the topic no longer have a voice. The “advocates" are more concerned about keeping their non profits thriving and ruffling feathers gets them in trouble, so their news releases never step outside the boundaries of approved corporate language. Victims who actually THINK things through are not heard. The Church gets away with another one.
A real response to this news from the bishops from victims' advocates would be: "Yes the number of pedophile priest victims is so high and alarming that settlements are costing you a lot of money. So Sell Some Assets and Make Things Right!"
This is the article first paragraphs:
California Catholic
bishops ask Supreme Court to review case challenging statute of limitations
May 6, 2022
by Alejandra Molina,
Catholic
bishops in California have asked the U.S. Supreme Court to review a case
challenging a state law that expands the time survivors of childhood sexual
assault have to file their claims.
The
petition, first reported this week by the
Catholic News Agency was filed April 15 by nine California Catholic
dioceses and archdioceses after the California Supreme Court refused to
consider the case — Roman Catholic Bishop of Oakland v. Superior Court of
California of Los Angeles County — in November.
In
2002, California enacted a one-year window for plaintiffs to bring sexual-abuse
claims against the Catholic Church and others "even if the statute of
limitations had expired many decades before," the bishops said in their
petition.
When
that year ended, the state attempted to revive lapsed claims three more times,
but former Gov. Jerry Brown vetoed each bill, the petition notes. But Brown's
successor, Gavin Newsom, signed legislation in 2019 that allowed certain
assault victims more time to bring suits, which the bishops are calling
"an unconstitutional double-revival regime."
"This
time," the bishops' petition reads, "defendants' past conduct is
subject not only to claims for compensatory and punitive damages that were
previously time-barred twice over, but also to additional penalties (in the
form of 'treble' damages) based on a newly defined category of 'cover up'
activity."
The Survivors Network of those Abused by Priests, or SNAP,
lambasted the bishops' petition in a statement Wednesday
(May 4).
"To attempt to invalidate this law by going around the
lawmakers now is at best disingenuous and is also a slap in the face to the
thousands of victims — not just Catholic victims — seeking solace and
justice," SNAP said in the statement....
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See what I mean? The exact words of the SNAP statement could be used to defend the church against the pedophile priest victims and our pesky complaints. THERE IS NO ONE ADVOCATING FOR THE PEDO PRIEST CRIME VICTIMS ANYMORE. As usual, SNAP’s statement is so "safe" it could be advocating for anyone. They even say "not just Catholic victims" always more concerned about covering their asses and growing their donor base than accomplishing anything real..
Of course the church wants to stop having to pay out settlements to the adults who were raped by their priests as children. The Vatican and all Catholic hierarchy only care about their assets.
So now I go back to my private exile. It does me No Good to even care about the church's response to the pedophile priest crisis anymore. I only posted this on my blog to keep from running the sentences over and over in my head when I'm trying to nap.
If the persons who have the power to effect change are not going to do anything, why am I wasting my time on it?
So I sit here in my mountain resort watching the entire United States, this wonderful political experiment, fall apart.
Can't help thinking that if the Catholic Church had done the right thing and admitted its guilt and freely made amends to its thousands of victims past two decades, it would have set an example for the rest of the world and, perhaps, everything would be going in a more positive direction all over the globe right now.
But they didn't. and it isn’t. And I need to go walk under the trees.
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Kay Ebeling
South Lake Tahoe CA
ADD:
This Facebook post I wrote earlier in the day somehow seems connected:
Lately Congresswoman Marjorie Taylor Greene has been accusing politicians of pedophilia with no credible evidence or proof. She also recently said the Catholic Church is run by Satan because of Catholic Charities’ policy on immigration.
Why has Mrs. Greene never made the connection between the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops and thousands of pedophile priests in the United States, most of them never incarcerated, just removed from priesthood so they can live freely in American neighborhoods?
This link takes you to a database of pedophile priests in the Catholic Church with credible, documented accusations: https://www.bishop-accountability.org/accused/ You can click on names from A to Z on this webpage to find close to seven thousand perpetrators identified in the recent period that pedophile priest victims have come forward, roughly 1995 to the present. No pedophile priest gets into this database with just one accusation. The charges have to be confirmed adequately for a civil attorney to accept a client and for a judge to pass judgment for a lawsuit to proceed; or in some cases, a newspaper article with attribution gets a priest into the database. No one can just announce “he's a pedophile” to get a name into this database; you have to have proof to get your perpetrator onto this website.
If the Congresswoman wants to prevent pedophilia in America, why hasn’t she publicized the priests in the bishopaccountability database? Why isn’t she angry about the obscene number of Catholic clergy who got away with this horrible sex crime against children?
I'm one of a hundred thousand victims in the USA today and for 15 years I wrote a blog from a victim’s point of view that you can read here: http://cityofangels3.blogspot.com and http://cityofangels12.blogspot.com for an idea of the kind of real crime the Church got away with. Since most the victims were marginalized and silenced when we tried to get out information about these crimes, the pedophilia is likely still going on in the Church. I would applaud Mrs. Greene if she turned her outrage onto something that really deserves outrage.
Thank you,The Catholic Church harbored more than six thousand pedophile priests (and counting) they were in Every Archdiocese in the country, so it's hard to believe the other "innocent priests" did not know about these sex crimes against children. They Have No Right to claim moral authority about abortion or Anything Else.
As one of a hundred thousand pedophile priest victims in USA, I WISH Biden would stop going to Mass in such a public way.
A girl named Cindy replied:
Kay Ebeling I go to Mass every Sunday, I receive communion, I pray. Catholicism is my faith. I do not go to support sexual predators, nor does anyone I know. I do not agree with many of the politics of the church, but it is still my faith. And I know I’m not the only one who feels this way.
The Archbishop of Miami said, "Joseph's colorful coat could have been a Versace," at a memorial service right after the designer's 1997 murder. The bishop also sang a Madonna song and embarrassed a cathedral full of attendees, PLUS no one asked them to do the service, the archdiocese just sent out a press release announcing it, messing up police legwork, as they freaked that Andrew Cunanan would attend and shoot people. But Catholic hierarchy joined in the media frenzy and grabbed a PR opportunity. Ah those bishops…. I'm reading "Vulgar Favors" by Maureen Orth, a phenomenal accomplishment of journalism. Also Cunanan was an altar boy who grew up to be a male prostitute / really screwed up serial killer of gay men. Hmm
Wow. My perp church has a new perp priest and I'm pretty sure I shot video of him bringing a boy into the rectory one afternoon when I was in Bartlett in 2012 doing research, now have to go searching for it wow. St. Peter Damian Church Bartlett IL :FatherChristopher Ciomek, Pastor Of St. Peter Damian Parish In Bartlett, Removed Amid30-Year-Old Child Sex Abuse Claims
Found it
It was on my first trip to Chicago in 2008: https://cityofangels4.blogspot.com/2008/07/video-of-boy-running-into-rectory-from.html?fbclid=IwAR0EFypm_4ffsov1-t1de6j85f5agljartvjsPlD911DYwf_-goX2V628sc
