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Thursday, May 12, 2022

Catholic bishops get away with pedophile priest crime diversion and coverup so much, no one even notices anymore


*Can't help thinking that if the Catholic Church had done the right thing and admitted its guilt and made amends to its thousands of victims past two decades, it would have set an example for the rest of the world and, perhaps, everything would be going in a more positive direction all over the globe right now.*

The bishops quoted in the article below are getting away with saying, "There are too many victims of pedophile priests. Paying the settlements is causing us hardship." No One is pointing out, YES there are too many pedophile priest victims. SNAP, the “advocacy group” that is supposed to speak for victims responds with a statement that gets in the news with words such as "solace and justice" and "slap in the face to victims" which could apply to ANYONE anywhere talking about ANYTHING. Since SNAP ruffles no feathers, they get quoted. 

We're talking about eleven year old boys being sodomized and six year old girls being finger banged (me) by Catholic priests, and advocates don't want to be too abrasive. No one uses descriptive language. Every news group that reports this story will euphemize it as being about “clergy abuse” so someone who has not read a lot about these crimes thinks maybe a reverend patted an altar boy’s behind one time. 

I have no voice anymore; my blog was sidelined for ruffling too many feathers. Other writers on the topic no longer have a voice. The “advocates" are more concerned about keeping their non profits thriving and ruffling feathers gets them in trouble, so their news releases never step outside the boundaries of approved corporate language. Victims who actually THINK things through are not heard. The Church gets away with another one. 

A real response to this news from the bishops from victims' advocates would be: "Yes the number of pedophile priest victims is so high and alarming that settlements are costing you a lot of money. So Sell Some Assets and Make Things Right!"

This is the article first paragraphs:

California Catholic bishops ask Supreme Court to review case challenging statute of limitations

May 6, 2022

by Alejandra Molina,

Catholic bishops in California have asked the U.S. Supreme Court to review a case challenging a state law that expands the time survivors of childhood sexual assault have to file their claims.

The petition, first reported this week by the Catholic News Agency was filed April 15 by nine California Catholic dioceses and archdioceses after the California Supreme Court refused to consider the case — Roman Catholic Bishop of Oakland v. Superior Court of California of Los Angeles County — in November.

In 2002, California enacted a one-year window for plaintiffs to bring sexual-abuse claims against the Catholic Church and others "even if the statute of limitations had expired many decades before," the bishops said in their petition.

When that year ended, the state attempted to revive lapsed claims three more times, but former Gov. Jerry Brown vetoed each bill, the petition notes. But Brown's successor, Gavin Newsom, signed legislation in 2019 that allowed certain assault victims more time to bring suits, which the bishops are calling "an unconstitutional double-revival regime." 

"This time," the bishops' petition reads, "defendants' past conduct is subject not only to claims for compensatory and punitive damages that were previously time-barred twice over, but also to additional penalties (in the form of 'treble' damages) based on a newly defined category of 'cover up' activity."

The Survivors Network of those Abused by Priests, or SNAP, lambasted the bishops' petition in a statement Wednesday (May 4).

"To attempt to invalidate this law by going around the lawmakers now is at best disingenuous and is also a slap in the face to the thousands of victims — not just Catholic victims — seeking solace and justice," SNAP said in the statement....


See what I mean? The exact words of the SNAP statement could be used to defend the church against the pedophile priest victims and our pesky complaints. THERE IS NO ONE ADVOCATING FOR THE PEDO PRIEST CRIME VICTIMS ANYMORE. As usual, SNAP’s statement is so "safe" it could be advocating for anyone. They even say "not just Catholic victims" always more concerned about covering their asses and growing their donor base than accomplishing anything real.. 

Of course the church wants to stop having to pay out settlements to the adults who were raped by their priests as children. The Vatican and all Catholic hierarchy only care about their assets.

So now I go back to my private exile. It does me No Good to even care about the church's response to the pedophile priest crisis anymore. I only posted this on my blog to keep from running the sentences over and over in my head when I'm trying to nap. 

If the persons who have the power to effect change are not going to do anything, why am I wasting my time on it?

So I sit here in my mountain resort watching the entire United States, this wonderful political experiment, fall apart. 

Can't help thinking that if the Catholic Church had done the right thing and admitted its guilt and freely made amends to its thousands of victims past two decades, it would have set an example for the rest of the world and, perhaps, everything would be going in a more positive direction all over the globe right now.

But they didn't.  and it isn’t.  And I need to go walk under the trees. 


Kay Ebeling 

South Lake Tahoe CA


This Facebook post I wrote earlier in the day somehow seems connected:

I have concluded that the USA does not exist anymore. When we pulled out of Afghanistan that was the last of it but the demise of our nation started in Iraq around 2002. I really think someone else who is not American is running the whole government now, and they are not letting us know. So we all tweet and write FB posts and LTE's and join campaigns saying what we think the DOJ and Congress and President should do; we all agree what they should do, and they don't do any of it. So on the left and the right, we all tweet and post and express outrage but nothing gets done.
I even think whoever is pulling the strings is also releasing news stories on purpose to rile us up, turn us against each other. The supreme court "leak" re abortion rights is a great example. I've NEVER seen so much hatred and vitriol posted by persons who claim to be "progressive" in my 74 years.
Someone hits our knees with a hammer and our legs jerk up and then the guys in Russia or Saudi Arabia or whoever is running this show all Laugh and Laugh and then do something else to rile us up and turn us against each other even more.
So I'm asking my friends to please, accept it that the USA does not exist anymore, and come to South Lake Tahoe and join me. We can have parties, coffees, enjoy the rest of our lives and just ignore the fricking news, ignore the politicians, ignore the elections even. Pretty sure for first time in my life I'm going to sit this election out. I mean, why bother? The Dems don't accomplish anything but talk talk talk. they talk and then there's no effective follow up. Ever.
I'm so discouraged but also kinda grateful that I already had all hope and faith vacuumed out of me in the 20 years or so I dealt with the church and its lawyers re being raped by a pedophile priest at age five. I mean, if no one else, you'd expect the Vatican to be benevolent, but all the Catholic bishops did in response to that shocking crisis with more than 100K victims was protect their assets. So now when the entire U.S. Government is failing in the same way, I'm totally scabbed and calloused from previous scars. Nothing bothers me anymore except seeing my fellow americans fall for the sh-- again and again.
So, Please, Friends, Colleagues, Come to South Lake Tahoe. The air here is still relatively clean, 80 degrees is a heatwave. We'll start a movement for rejection of everything but sun fun and vodka.
look forward to seeing you all soon...


Thursday, April 28, 2022

To MTGreene: There is real pedophile crime in the Catholic Church: Proof

Lately Congresswoman Marjorie Taylor Greene has been accusing politicians of pedophilia with no credible evidence or proof. She also recently said the Catholic Church is run by Satan because of Catholic Charities’ policy on immigration.

Why has Mrs. Greene never made the connection between the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops and  thousands of pedophile priests in the United States, most of them never incarcerated, just removed from priesthood so they can live freely in American neighborhoods?

This link takes you to a database of pedophile priests in the Catholic Church with credible, documented accusations: You can click on names from A to Z on this webpage to find close to seven thousand perpetrators identified in the recent period that pedophile priest victims have come forward, roughly 1995 to the present. No pedophile priest gets into this database with just one accusation. The charges have to be confirmed adequately for a civil attorney to accept a client and for a judge to pass judgment for a lawsuit to proceed; or in some cases, a newspaper article with attribution gets a priest into the database. No one can just announce “he's a pedophile” to get a name into this database; you have to have proof to get your perpetrator onto this website.

If the Congresswoman wants to prevent pedophilia in America, why hasn’t she publicized the priests in the bishopaccountability database? Why isn’t she angry about the obscene number of Catholic clergy who got away with this horrible sex crime against children?

I'm one of a hundred thousand victims in the USA today and for 15 years I wrote a blog from a victim’s point of view that you can read here: and for an idea of the kind of real crime the Church got away with. Since most the victims were marginalized and silenced when we tried to get out information about these crimes, the pedophilia is likely still going on in the Church. I would applaud Mrs. Greene if she turned her outrage onto something that really deserves outrage.

Thank you, 
Kay Ebeling, South Lake Tahoe CA

Monday, June 21, 2021

Soon after posting this on Facebook my computer got hacked, hmm

The Catholic Church harbored more than six thousand pedophile priests (and counting) they were in Every Archdiocese in the country, so it's hard to believe the other "innocent priests" did not know about these sex crimes against children. They Have No Right to claim moral authority about abortion or Anything Else.

As one of a hundred thousand pedophile priest victims in USA, I WISH Biden would stop going to Mass in such a public way.

A girl named Cindy replied: 

Kay Ebeling I go to Mass every Sunday, I receive communion, I pray. Catholicism is my faith. I do not go to support sexual predators, nor does anyone I know. I do not agree with many of the politics of the church, but it is still my faith. And I know I’m not the only one who feels this way.

 Why would anyone want anything to do with an organization that harbored 6000 pedophiles in recent history, let alone go to them for spirituality. Sorry, I don't get it. I think you have been kept from the truth about the extent of these crimes, and you don't realize that your proclaiming how great your church is RETRAUMATIZES the hundred thousand plus victims and that's just in USA. read here: – Documenting the Catholic Sexual Abuse and Financial Crisis – Data on bishops, priests, brothers, nuns, Pope Francis, Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith
BISHOP-ACCOUNTABILITY.ORG – Documenting the Catholic Sexual Abuse and Financial Crisis – Data on bishops, priests, brothers, nuns, Pope Francis, Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith – Documenting the Catholic Sexual Abuse and Financial Crisis – Data on bishops, priests, brothers, nuns, Pope Francis, Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith
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Kay Ebeling

I've turned off notifications as I Do Not Want to hear any more from people defending this church. To me, it's really weird to continue going to Catholic Church after all this, How can you trust them with anything? Rhetorical question only.

 One more point: The Pedophilia was widespread and in Every Archdiocese in the country, so it's almost impossible that other priests did not know about it. They just turned their heads the other way.

Someone tell Joe Biden to stop making such public display of his prayer and Mass going, hasn't he read the Sermon on the Mount? 

Saturday, June 19, 2021

Sorry to interrupt your "prayers" but...

I Am Still So Angry about the pedophile priests getting away with their crimes while today Catholics are empowered by Biden's public display of faith. For some reason the "clergy abuse" subject is coming up on Facebook and Twitter again, and the rage inside me is hard to contain. Not just about the pedophilia, but the way the church covered up the mass molestation. As a hundred thousand victims came forward to report crimes of 6000 priests last two decades, we never got help or "pastoral care" as the church claimed, nor did we get support from victims organizations that appeared in the media to "speak for" us. All anyone did was Damage Control to shut us up, and now the brainwashed believers are all reverent and acting like We Are The Problem, the victims living with permanent damage, still trying to publicize the crimes, as we are interrupting their mesmerizing. I truly believe the reason the planet and politics are destructing right now is that from the Vatican on down, religious leaders set the tone: Screw victims protect your assets. Claiming to have God On Your Side is a great way to prevent criticism. Ebeling out -

Kay Ebeling

Wednesday, April 28, 2021

 Notice all the child sex crimes all over world lately?

Maybe since priests got away with it, it's open season now

Wednesday, April 21, 2021

Andrew Cunanan was yet another screwed up altar boy

 The Archbishop of Miami said, "Joseph's colorful coat could have been a Versace," at a memorial service right after the designer's 1997 murder. The bishop also sang a Madonna song and embarrassed a cathedral full of attendees, PLUS no one asked them to do the service, the archdiocese just sent out a press release announcing it, messing up police legwork, as they freaked that Andrew Cunanan would attend and shoot people. But Catholic hierarchy joined in the media frenzy and grabbed a PR opportunity. Ah those bishops…. I'm reading "Vulgar Favors" by Maureen Orth, a phenomenal accomplishment of journalism. Also Cunanan was an altar boy who grew up to be a male prostitute / really screwed up serial killer of gay men. Hmm

Tuesday, April 20, 2021

My perp church has a new perp priest and I might have seen him with a young boy back in 2008 looking secretive

Wow. My perp church has a new perp priest and I'm pretty sure I shot video of him bringing a boy into the rectory one afternoon when I was in Bartlett in 2012 doing research, now have to go searching for it wow. St. Peter Damian Church Bartlett IL :FatherChristopher Ciomek, Pastor Of St. Peter Damian Parish In Bartlett, Removed Amid30-Year-Old Child Sex Abuse Claims

Found it 

SATURDAY, JULY 19, 2008 Video of boy running into rectory from garage at St. Peter Damian church yesterday. . .

It was on my first trip to Chicago in 2008:

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  • Previous post says: Just for the heck of it I was videoing the empty parking lot at St. Peter Damian church yesterday, the new buildings, the rectory. I panned over by the garage and there was a teenage boy taking things out of a trunk and very quickly running into the rectory. I'm even sort of narrating as I do the boring stupid video, there’s the building, there’s all this asphalt, and there’s a teenage boy running into the rectory.
    THERE'S A TEENAGE BOY running into the rectory.
    Call me Scoop. You can’t see it on the video which is in a post below this one here at City of Angels. Maybe if there is a way to zoom way in and enhance, you can see it. A teenage boy was unloading something from the trunk of a car in the garage and taking it into the rectory just when I happened to be there.
    THERE WAS NOBODY else around. One other car in the parking lot. So maybe one other person was in the rectory.
    It was a business day. The parking lot at Evangel Church had a sprinkling of staff cars. The parking lot at St. Peter Damian’s was empty but for one car, and this teenage boy unloading something from a car in the garage into the area where the priests live. . .
    I wandered around to the other side of the rectory and found a yellow ladder leaning against the building, leading up to a window, probably a bedroom window. There's a picture of that below.
    Okay. It all probably has perfectly innocent explanations. Teenage boys always rush in the back entrances of rectories on days when no one else is around.

Tuesday, February 16, 2021

You can blame the Vatican handling of pedophile priests for everything going wrong in the world.

I believe that if the Catholic Bishops had responded to their pedophile priest crisis with justice, humility, and penance, it would have set an example for the rest of the world, and we would have entered a global period of balance and decency. INSTEAD from the Vatican on down, Church hierarchy led a movement to denigrate the victims, now adults, coming forward to report the crimes. American Bishops went to Great Lengths to protect corporate assets and screw the plaintiffs. The Catholic Church set an example for the world. Now several nations are electing fascist autocrats and destroying individual freedom, including USA. If Only the Vatican had responded about 20 years ago with a conscience. I think that was humanity's last chance. Blown.

- Kay Ebeling

Thursday, February 11, 2021

Several Perfect Storms led to creation of CofA Blog exposing pedophile priests

 Rerunning again: 

By Kay Ebeling - City of Angels

(First published at CofA blog Oct 2016)

He was tall and thin and wore bow ties, and he was packing up his laptop to leave just as the hearing started.
While counsel for plaintiffs stood before the judge detailing obstruction of justice the Archdiocese carried out against pedophile priest victims, the court beat reporter from the L.A. Times was packing up to leave. And he was the only journalist there besides me. 
The judge said something like: “So the monsignor encountered the priest who then scampered into the woods to hide, then a nine-year-old boy came out of the rectory with blood running down his legs, and now defendant will not produce the monsignor for deposition?” to which plaintiff’s attorney emphasized, “Yes, your honor.”
I grabbed the L.A. Times guy’s arm and asked, “Why are you leaving?”
“Phil Spector!” he stage whispered and scampered out of the courtroom to cover the celebrity murder trial up the street. ***
The Times reporter left with his two thousand dollar laptop and I stayed at the hearing, scribbling notes into a dime store notepad. Then came a perfect storm. 
Even the cheapest laptops cost a thousand dollars back then and I had been on unemployment for more than a year around the time of that hearing, because a writers' strike halted production. So at home all I had was a massive desktop with massive monitor. Then all of a sudden I went back to work and somehow Unemployment owed me a thousand dollars in back payments.  I didn't even know why.
So a check for a little more than a thousand dollars showed up in my mailbox.  I used the lump sum to buy a laptop and took it with me downtown to cover the L.A. Clergy Cases almost daily when I got off work. 
In those months I became the only news source covering most of the hearings while close to a thousand pedophile priest lawsuits against the Archdiocese of Los Angeles and San Diego went through L.A. Superior Court in 2007. 
There were other perfect storms connected to production of City of Angels Blog, so many that for a while there, I really thought angelic intervention was making things happen. 
Actually I'm still not sure…  
It was a perfect storm connected to the other perfect storm that caused me to know how to do a blog in the first place. 

Earlier in 2006, I had tried to create one at blogger dot com and it was too difficult.  Then in December that year, Google purchased Blogger and created Blogspot with a dashboard that made blogging very easy.  Also, in 2006 all those TV production crews on strike were doing blogs, which I went to daily for updates.  They already knew how to post videos, live feeds of events, links to other blogs, and were going at it during the strike, and I soon became fascinated by how a blog could be a powerful tool as a means of communication.  
So, since Google created a new dashboard in late 2006,  I was able to create Cityof Angels Blog 3 in January 2007, with a laptop I got for being unemployed during the writers’ strike using techniques I learned from striking writers, And I started going to hearings in L.A. Superior Court downtown.

More perfect storms soon followed. 

One afternoon after a hearing, the judge overheard me ask his clerk how to access the documents in all these lawsuits, and next day the clerk approached me to say, here is how to access the documents.  I followed his instructions, went in the little ground floor room with my laptop, which was loaded with transcription software (I do transcription for TV shows for  living). So I was able to copy at great speed the documents that had been filed in several of the 660 cases that remained in L.A. County, the San Diego cases having split to go south.
I really went to town in that little room  and even created the expression “document diving,” posting some really revealing information straight up to City of Angels Blog 3.  But within weeks the Superior Court media office decided to close off the room, and I was never able to access the documents again.  Soon the whole Clergy Case operation was moved to a courthouse in a different part of town that was hard for me to get to on the bus.  In order to to read the documents in that courthouse, one had to pay a good amount of dollars per page and have them printed.
So there was just that short period, that short perfect storm, several months at the most, where I was able to document dive and publish all kinds of documents exposing all kinds of crimes carried out by the Archbishop of Los Angeles in covering up the crimes of pedophile priests.
In fact there are perfect storms connected to the entire breakthrough of the pedophile priest crime stories, going back to the nineteen eighties.
Personally, before 1994, I thought I had imagined the incident with Father Horne-y.  For years I believed that St. Michael the Archangel came to me in the woods when I was 5-6 years old and did this AMAZING thing to me with his fingers between my legs.  From that age on I was determined to share that wonderful thing with everyone I met and boy did I get in trouble.  My sexuality from age six to, well, the present got me ostracized, hated, kids weren’t allowed to play with me, wives were gunning for me after what I did with their husbands. To this day at age sixty eight, my sexuality is a problem in that I'm not able to take part at all.  Because until 1994 I was so dysfunctional, today I just don’t even try.
In 1994 I found out the incident with Father Horne (aka Father Horne-y) was not Michael the Archangel and was not my imagination, it really happened.  I learned through a phone conversation with a long estranged sister.  I found out Father Horne-y had gotten to her as well. 

Probably the most important perfect storm of them all: 

In the 1990s, the home computer came out
Then the internet got connected to home computers
And I just happened to live in San Francisco where the dot com bubble was imploding and lots of small businesses were closing.  Therefore, I was able to buy a second hand computer cheap, like a hundred dollars.  The dot com businessman, desperate to liquidate and get out of town, even came over to our home in the Lower Haight to show me how to hook up to the internet.
That afternoon I went online and found other pedophile priest victims around the country.

In fact, in writing about this issue, there have been so many miracles, or perfect storms, or angelic interventions, that for a while there I started to think God arranged it all.
Arranged it so that right after the story came out on in the late 1980s On A Few TV Shows, This Very Democratic Communication Source had been invented, so that survivors could use it to keep evil powers from preventing release of the truth.
Okay, maybe I am going too far.
But think of it.
It makes sense  
As soon as the first survivor appeared on Oprah Winfrey, the church went to work creating a way to keep the mainstream world from finding out about these crimes in their entirety.
Thanks to the internet the church was not able to control the release of the story, at least not able to for that short period of time. 
Since the nineties, corporate and other powers have found ways to prevent information from being released as easily as it was when the World Wide Web first became available to civilians.
If survivors went online looking for other survivors today, most of what they’d find is corporate controlled websites. 
However, in those first years of the internet, the nineties through about 2010, the internet was just enough of a free for all to get past the powers of the Catholic Church and get out to the public at least some of the truth about the pedophile priests.
Enough of the story of this epidemic of crimes against children came out to show the guilt of the monsignors, bishops, and even popes.  How humans react to that information, not even God or any powers can control.

Another perfect storm in my story: 

There I was in 1994, bloated recovering from several addictions, in my mid forties, fifty pounds overweight, going to A-A meetings finally sober for more than two years, when I started remembering things and made that phone call to my sister. That was was another part of the perfect storm for me. I was sober for the first time in my life so able to think things through enough to call my sister. Almost all my life I've been estranged  from my sister, and today am estranged from her again. But that one day in 1994 I was talking to her, and I called her to ask, did anything ever happen to you with Father Horne when you were little.
And she said, Oh no, he got to you too?
And my life changed.
And it's still changing.
With that phone call, I knew I was not born a slut, but an evil priest had put those compulsions inside me, probably not even knowing that by finger banging me at age five there under the trees, he turned me into a rabid sex fiend who spent the next four decades determined to show everyone this wonderful thing he showed me.
Yes, a little dalliance on the part of a perverted priest with a little girl created a whore who destroyed families everywhere she went from puberty until depletion.
There I was at age forty-five in 1994 clean and sober for the first time in my life, my daughter turning age five, the age I was when the molestation took place. I was feeling so guilty in those days wondering why I did the things I did. And then with Oprah Winfrey and a phone call to my sister, I suddenly had an explanation.
And a home computer and a man who hooked me up to the internet for the first time
All for the first time ever. All in a few months time.
In the early nineties, I went online searching for other persons who’d been molested by Catholic priests and found the first chat rooms, called a “listservs.” As a public service, universities let ordinary people use their newly installed internet servers to communicate, sharing this wonderful democratic new communication tool.  I found a listserv for pedophile priest victims who were members of a group called The Linkup and started chatting every night as addicted then as people get now when they first get online. 

A series of perfect storms. 

Today everything on the internet seems to be corporate managed and the small voices are barely heard, except for within small groups of other small voices.  However, in the 1990s, we were able to get some great things done during that one small window of time, that perfect storm.
Without the internet, pedophile priests probably would still be free to do what they want and the bishops would still be hiding them. For centuries, the church was able to hide these crimes and act astonished when victims came forward in one city after another, insisting it was an isolated case that never happens ever anywhere else in the church.
Could be that God, or The Arranger, Creator, Goddess, whatever, knew there would be this one short fast opportunity to get out the truth, get past the powers, and get as much of the truth out as possible before the powers took control again.
The internet is not the democratic sharing free-for-all it was in the nineteen nineties.
For that short period, we slipped past the guards and found each other through this tool, then used this tool to make it so public that the church could no longer deny the pedophile priest crimes. They diverted our attention, pointed at other places, “Public school teachers do it, Baptists do it!” but the truth still came out.
So is it that weird to think God or some Higher Power arranged for the internet and home computer to come out just after television shows about the crimes, so humans, at least a few of us, would grab hold of those tools and get past the guards and expose these crimes?
I don't think so.

Posted by Kay Ebeling
Producer, City of Angels Blog
Not just L.A., the city of angels is everywhere

*** The guy from the L.A. Times would only stay for five minutes into a hearing, then get up and leave because the Phil Spector murder trial was going on up the street, where reporters were not even allowed in the courtroom. Still the L.A. Times reporter believed that being one of hundreds of “journalists” waiting to write down the three or four words said into a microphone during breaks in the Phil Spector murder trial, and then reporting the exact same words as every news outlet in town, was more important than the thousand civil cases going through Superior Court in early 2007 about pedophile priests molesting thousands of children in the region. 

Personal Post Script: To this day I think I was kept alive through several scenarios in my life where I shouldhave ended up dead especially the Dump Truck Incident so that I would be in L.A. the year the month and the day that about a thousand lawsuits against the Archdiocese of Los Angeles were going through Superior Court and no other reporter was paying attention. 

I think I was kept alive to do this blog

And I'm still here.

Photo is Lizzie at our first home computer 1994