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Wednesday, November 30, 2016

I am sick and will not be posting for a while.

Friday, October 28, 2016

Catholic Church leads downfall of civilization. Good morning

On Facebook this AM
if the catholic church had led the world and taken responsibility for its decades of crimes against children, it might have set the entire globe in a different direction, but instead the Pope on down chose to lie, manipulate information, defeat innocent people who protested. And now it seems the entire world is falling apart in very strange ways. Could there be a connection? Could the Church have changed everything by just being an example of truth and justice instead of corporate coverups in the name of greed? We'll never know.


Monday, October 17, 2016

Several perfect storms exposed pedophile priests

By Kay Ebeling - City of Angels

He was tall and thin and wore bow ties, and he was packing up his laptop to leave just as the hearing started.
While counsel for plaintiffs stood before the judge detailing obstruction of justice the Archdiocese carried out against pedophile priest victims, the court beat reporter from the L.A. Times was packing up to leave. And he was the only journalist there besides me. 
The judge said something like: “So the monsignor bumped into the priest who then scampered into the woods to hide, then a nine-year-old boy came out of the rectory with blood running down his legs, and now defendant will not produce the monsignor for deposition?” to which plaintiff’s attorney emphasized, “Yes, your honor.”
I grabbed the L.A. Times guy’s arm and asked, “Why are you leaving?”
“Phil Spector!” he stage whispered and scampered out of the courtroom to cover the celebrity murder trial up the street. ***
The Times reporter left with his two thousand dollar laptop and I stayed at the hearing, scribbling notes into a dime store notepad. Then came a perfect storm. 
Even the cheapest laptops cost a thousand dollars back then and I had been on unemployment for more than a year around the time of that hearing, because a writers' strike halted production. So at home all I had was a massive desktop with massive monitor. Then all of a sudden I went back to work and somehow Unemployment owed me a thousand dollars in back payments.  I didn't even know why.
So a check for a little more than a thousand dollars showed up in my mailbox.  I used the lump sum to buy a laptop and took it with me downtown to cover the L.A. Clergy Cases almost daily when I got off work. 
In those months I became the only news source covering most of the hearings while close to a thousand pedophile priest lawsuits against the Archdiocese of Los Angeles and San Diego went through L.A. Superior Court in 2007. 
There were other perfect storms connected to production of City of Angels Blog, so many that for a while there, I really thought angelic intervention was making things happen. 
Actually I'm still not sure…  
It was a perfect storm connected to the other perfect storm that caused me to know how to do a blog in the first place. 

Earlier in 2006, I had tried to create one at blogger dot com and it was too difficult.  Then in December that year, Google purchased Blogger and created Blogspot with a dashboard that made blogging very easy.  Also, in 2006 all those TV production crews on strike were doing blogs, which I went to daily for updates.  They already knew how to post videos, live feeds of events, links to other blogs, and were going at it during the strike, and I soon became fascinated by how a blog could be a powerful tool as a means of communication.  
So, since Google created a new dashboard in late 2006,  I was able to create Cityof Angels Blog 3 in January 2007, with a laptop I got for being unemployed during the writers’ strike using techniques I learned from striking writers, And I started going to hearings in L.A. Superior Court downtown.

More perfect storms soon followed.

One afternoon after a hearing, the judge overheard me ask his clerk how to access the documents in all these lawsuits, and next day the clerk approached me to say, here is how to access the documents.  I followed his instructions, went in the little ground floor room with my laptop, which was loaded with transcription software (I do transcription for TV shows for  living). So I was able to copy at great speed the documents that had been filed in several of the 660 cases that remained in L.A. County, the San Diego cases having split to go south.
I really went to town in that little room  and even created the expression “document diving,” posting some really revealing information straight up to City of Angels Blog 3.  But within weeks the Superior Court media office decided to close off the room, and I was never able to access the documents again.  Soon the whole Clergy Case operation was moved to a courthouse in a different part of town that was hard for me to get to on the bus.  In order to to read the documents in that courthouse, one had to pay a good amount of dollars per page and have them printed.
So there was just that short period, that short perfect storm, several months at the most, where I was able to document dive and publish all kinds of documents exposing all kinds of crimes carried out by the Archbishop of Los Angeles in covering up the crimes of pedophile priests.
In fact there are perfect storms connected to the entire breakthrough of the pedophile priest crime stories, going back to the nineteen eighties.
Personally, before 1994, I thought I had imagined the incident with Father Horne-y.  For years I believed that St. Michael the Archangel came to me in the woods when I was 5-6 years old and did this AMAZING thing to me with his fingers between my legs.  From that age on I was determined to share that wonderful thing with everyone I met and boy did I get in trouble.  My sexuality from age six to, well, the present got me ostracized, hated, kids weren’t allowed to play with me, wives were gunning for me after what I did with their husbands. To this day at age sixty eight, my sexuality is a problem in that I'm not able to take part at all.  Because until 1994 I was so dysfunctional, today I just don’t even try.
In 1994 I found out the incident with Father Horne (aka Father Horne-y) was not Michael the Archangel and was not my imagination, it really happened.  I learned through a phone conversation with a long estranged sister.  I found out Father Horne-y had gotten to her as well. 

Probably the most important perfect storm of them all:

In the 1990s, the home computer came out
Then the internet got connected to home computers
And I just happened to live in San Francisco where the dot com bubble was imploding and lots of small businesses were closing.  Therefore, I was able to buy a second hand computer cheap, like a hundred dollars.  The dot com businessman, desperate to liquidate and get out of town, even came over to our home in the Lower Haight to show me how to hook up to the internet.
That afternoon I went online and found other pedophile priest victims around the country.

In fact, in writing about this issue, there have been so many miracles, or perfect storms, or angelic interventions, that for a while there I started to think God arranged it all.
Arranged it so that right after the story came out on in the late 1980s On A Few TV Shows, This Very Democratic Communication Source had been invented, so that survivors could use it to keep evil powers from preventing release of the truth.
Okay, maybe I am going too far.
But think of it.
It makes sense  
As soon as the first survivor appeared on Oprah Winfrey, the church went to work creating a way to keep the mainstream world from finding out about these crimes in their entirety.
Thanks to the internet the church was not able to control the release of the story, at least not able to for that short period of time. 
Since the nineties, corporate and other powers have found ways to prevent information from being released as easily as it was when the World Wide Web first became available to civilians.
If survivors went online looking for other survivors today, most of what they’d find is corporate controlled websites. 
However, in those first years of the internet, the nineties through about 2010, the internet was just enough of a free for all to get past the powers of the Catholic Church and get out to the public at least some of the truth about the pedophile priests.
Enough of the story of this epidemic of crimes against children came out to show the guilt of the monsignors, bishops, and even popes.  How humans react to that information, not even God or any powers can control.

Another perfect storm in my story: 

There I was in 1994, bloated recovering from several addictions, in my mid forties, fifty pounds overweight, going to A-A meetings finally sober for more than two years, when I started remembering things and made that phone call to my sister. That was was another part of the perfect storm for me. I was sober for the first time in my life so able to think things through enough to call my sister. Almost all my life I've been estranged  from my sister, and today am estranged from her again. But that one day in 1994 I was talking to her, and I called her to ask, did anything ever happen to you with Father Horne when you were little.
And she said, Oh no, he got to you too?
And my life changed.
And it's still changing.
With that phone call, I knew I was not born a slut, but an evil priest had put those compulsions inside me, probably not even knowing that by finger banging me at age five there under the trees, he turned me into a rabid sex fiend who spent the next four decades determined to show everyone this wonderful thing he showed me.
Yes, a little dalliance on the part of a perverted priest with a little girl created a whore who destroyed families everywhere she went from puberty until depletion.
There I was at age forty-five in 1994 clean and sober for the first time in my life, my daughter turning age five, the age I was when the molestation took place. I was feeling so guilty in those days wondering why I did the things I did. And then with Oprah Winfrey and a phone call to my sister, I suddenly had an explanation.
And a home computer and a man who hooked me up to the internet for the first time
All for the first time ever. All in a few months time.
In the early nineties, I went online searching for other persons who’d been molested by Catholic priests and found the first chat rooms, called a “listservs.” As a public service, universities let ordinary people use their newly installed internet servers to communicate, sharing this wonderful democratic new communication tool.  I found a listserv for pedophile priest victims who were members of a group called The Linkup and started chatting every night as addicted then as people get now when they first get online.

A series of perfect storms. 

Today everything on the internet seems to be corporate managed and the small voices are barely heard, except for within small groups of other small voices.  However, in the 1990s, we were able to get some great things done during that one small window of time, that perfect storm.
Without the internet, pedophile priests probably would still be free to do what they want and the bishops would still be hiding them. For centuries, the church was able to hide these crimes and act astonished when victims came forward in one city after another, insisting it was an isolated case that never happens ever anywhere else in the church.
Could be that God, or The Arranger, Creator, Goddess, whatever, knew there would be this one short fast opportunity to get out the truth, get past the powers, and get as much of the truth out as possible before the powers took control again.
The internet is not the democratic sharing free-for-all it was in the nineteen nineties.
For that short period, we slipped past the guards and found each other through this tool, then used this tool to make it so public that the church could no longer deny the pedophile priest crimes. They diverted our attention, pointed at other places, “Public school teachers do it, Baptists do it!” but the truth still came out.
So is it that weird to think God or some Higher Power arranged for the internet and home computer to come out just after television shows about the crimes, so humans, at least a few of us, would grab hold of those tools and get past the guards and expose these crimes?
I don't think so.

Posted by Kay Ebeling
Producer, City of Angels Blog
Not just L.A., the city of angels is everywhere

*** The guy from the L.A. Times would only stay for five minutes into a hearing, then get up and leave because the Phil Spector murder trial was going on up the street, where reporters were not even allowed in the courtroom. Still the L.A. Times reporter believed that being one of hundreds of “journalists” waiting to write down the three or four words said into a microphone during breaks in the Phil Spector murder trial, and then reporting the exact same words as every news outlet in town, was more important than the thousand civil cases going through Superior Court in early 2007 about pedophile priests molesting thousands of children in the region. 

Personal Post Script: To this day I think I was kept alive through several scenarios in my life where I shouldhave ended up dead so that I would be in L.A. the year the month and the day that about a thousand lawsuits against the Archdiocese of Los Angeles were going through Superior Court and no other reporter was paying attention. 

I think I was kept alive to do this blog

And I'm still here.


Friday, September 9, 2016

With pedophile priests, Twin Towers, and war crimes, USA is now The Falling Man

"There was something going on that was not familiar American territory about dealing with tragedy.  There were things about that day that you weren’t supposed to say, you weren’t supposed to see."  – Tom Junot, The Falling Man

I've seen the mentality to which Junot refers in the pedophile priest crisis, and as a result we get news like this:

Cardinal Vincent Nichols wants to ban employers asking about criminal records - Tue 06 Sep 2016 By Antony Bushfield - The leader of Catholics in England and Wales says employers should not be allowed to ask about a person's criminal record on a job application form.  Normally applications require a declaration of any past dealings with police but Cardinal Vincent Nichols said people should not be compelled to disclose their conviction.  Speaking at the Conference of Prison Chaplains, he said stopping the practice would allow convicts to "put their past in context and show who they really are.  It is hard to envisage the crushing disappointment of someone who has worked hard to move away from crime and learn new skills, only to be rejected for job after job and never even given the opportunity to explain how he or she has changed since being convicted years before.   (Read the entire story here  at Premier UK.)
The British Cardinal delivers a wonderful well-timed, compassionate argument but-

Did any reporter ask the Cardinal if pedophile priests are included in his advocacy for recovering criminals? 

In the USA we have not been willing to "show who we really are," as the Cardinal says, for decades. Instead we think if we act like something is not there, it will go away, an attitude that was blatant in the pedophile priest crisis. I think this refusal to admit our wrongs and make amends is at the root of all America’s problems, the whole country needs to learn from a program that works and do the Fourth Step all the way to the Ninth Step, starting with the Catholic Church. 
Journalist Tom Junot talks about this phenomenon of not facing the truth in The Falling Man documentary from 2006.
In the film we see that as the Twin Towers burned, people were jumping out of the buildings, an image that few of us can forget who watched that day.  But as shown in the film, when Junot tried to write about the people who were in the images, no one wanted to talk about the people who jumped, or even admit the jumping happened.
This is dialogue from the film:

Junot: I never saw that picture again.
Narrator: Newspapers and magazines decided not to run it again.   No one wanted to confront the existence of the jumpers.  Americans had recoiled from the falling man, but now pictures of heroes were something people could celebrate and rally around.
Junot: The images that lasted are in the most case heroic pictures.  There was a spin that came out of our feeling of being so deeply wounded which was that we're Americans… the American spirit shall prevail. Whereas Richard Drew’s picture, the Falling Man  picture became for whatever reason the one that nobody wanted to look at.
Narrator: But Tom Junot decided to investigate why the jumpers had been air brushed from the day. 
Junot: The coroner said nobody jumped that day. They were blown out, they were forced out, we don’t say that they jumped, nobody jumped.  That just made me feel that there was just something going on that was not familiar American territory about dealing with tragedy. . . . There were just things about that day that you weren’t supposed to say, you weren’t supposed to see, you weren’t supposed to talk about and for me that resistance wound up centering on and attaching itself to Richard Drew’s picture.  

(From Falling Man, the documentary released in 2006)

The same thing happened when Nancy Pelosi first took the gavel as Speaker of the House in 2007. First words out of her mouth were “Impeachment is off the table.” We never faced the war crimes of the Bush Administration and today we are still embroiled in the Middle East and those Bushwacko war criminals are still calling the shots.   

The U.S. is not going to recover until we stop pretending we can vibe our problems away.  Thinking good thoughts to make everything all right does not work. 

There's a defeated sense in the land, where we don’t want to look at crime if it is at such a high level that prosecution will be. . . work.

Globally the Roman Catholic Church protected thousands of priests who were molesting children, and aided and abetted their crimes, with the same pattern of criminal activity and cover-up in countries all over the world.

And yet Catholic Church hierarchy are the people we have advising us on morals and civil behavior?

If so, then the Church should lead the way and start admitting it aided and abetted pedophile priests, tell "the exact nature of its wrongs" per the Twelve Steps as opposed to deflective media events, then start making amends. Globally. Maybe then the rest of the world will follow. 

The full film 9/11: The Falling Man is available on YouTube for free
Posted by Kay Ebeling
City of Angels blogger
not just L.A., the city of angels is everywhere

Post Note: The "jumpers had been air brushed from the day" and now will hundreds of thousands of pedophile priest victims / survivors be air brushed from church history?

Monday, August 29, 2016

If SNAP were real, so much would have been different

If SNAP were real, there would have been events all over the country to coincide with release of the film Spotlight.

Gotta hand it to SNAP, their scheme was unique and it worked. When I talk to mainstream Americans, I find that no one knows what happened with the pedophile priests except for the people involved in the crisis.  SNAP managed to control release of the story as it broke from one city to another and, looking back on it, whatever CIA type spook who came up with this plan, it’s creative, it’s information management right out of what people think NASA does but it doesn't

One extremely effective technique used by Survivors Network of those Abused by Priests was, in every city, gathering all the contact information and keeping it from anyone else in the group.  .
Wherever the story broke about pedophile priests, from 2002 to today, SNAP would show up, traveling all over the world on short notice. 
What I witnessed was, SNAP flew in, became “in charge” of whatever media events were taking place, SNAP got all the media contact information from that new area where the story was breaking. SNAP also got all the contact information of new survivors. 
Then SNAP would fly away and take all the contact information with them. 
After a few years, SNAP became the organization every news person called. It was always a new reporter who did not realize the SNAP spokesperson was saying the exact same phrases they'd been saying for ten years, and nothing more. 
Even the local regional SNAP leaders were not given access to media and new survivor information, Blaine Clohessy and Dorris kept all that.
And never shared it.
As a result SNAP sent out all the press releases even if it was about a local story or media event. And they were really awful press releases with incorrect information and wrong addresses, times off by a few hours, etcetera, really bizarre.
As a result when a major event such as the release of the film Spotlight took place, the local SNAP leaders did not have press or local survivor contact information, it was all up to national SNAP to run any kind of campaign.
And SNAP did nothing.
SNAP was poised, with local branches in something like ninety cities around the country. And they did nothing. 
The biggest most obvious proof that SNAP is not really a survivor organization working for survivors, but is really working for someone else, is the lack of response to the film Spotlight.  
There should have used those local SNAP branches to hold press conferences and media events events in every one of those cities to coincide with the opening of Spotllight.
Instead the only public event for survivors connected to the film was Barbara Blaine smiling at the cameras on Oscar night from a cafĂ© around the corner from the Kodak Theater. 
The scam that is SNAP is, to me, the biggest part of the pedophile priest story, because SNAP prevented the story from breaking the way it would, without their damage control.
Now all those pervert priests are still in communities around the world, all the bishops who enabled them and profited from covering up their crimes are continuing to run what can’t be a legitimate religion as long as they are in charge. This is fraud at an extremely high level. 
Somewhere in David Clohessy’s basement in St. Louis is the truth about all this, although by now any evidence is probably hidden pretty well.  But ask any victim who used to be active with SNAP and then quit (there are thousands of us by now). We know the truth, but reporters, on tight time and cash budgets, always seem to go to no one but SNAP and the people SNAP sends them to, usually a newcomer who has not yet figured out the scam, to ask questions. 
That Is Not Journalism. 
Since American reporters don’t have beats, since the powerful own the media today- reporters just report what is said at press conferences, no one has the resources to dig into this part of the story. 

They got away with it.

The Catholic Church got away with thousands of pedophile priests raping hundreds of thousands of children MAINLY because the crime victims / "survivors" were not able to organize and conduct any kind of realistic advocacy to publicize our stories, because SNAP stood in the way in every city where the story broke.
They were working for the church all along.


If SNAP were real, this blog would have been incorporated, along with blogs by other survivors, into a network of information. There are hundreds of things SNAP could have been doing past twenty years, and all they did was suck up contact information while putting three or four people in the news, then disappear. 
We got screwed by a priest as a kid, by the church when we tried to get help, then by our own "support group" who just showed up in the middle of an already developing movement and took it over. 
Damage control 

POST NOTE: Since the first few scenes of Spotlight are full of "product placement" for SNAP in lines of dialogue mentioning the group, I wonder if the producers were expecting SNAP to produce events to help publicize the film, using SNAP's national resources. I'd love to know the true story of what happened there. 


If nothing else, silence around Spotlight was a Blatant Missed Opportunity for survivors to get out our stories to a much larger audience. 

But Blaine did tweet and retweet through the Oscars . . . to people who are already onboard. No one else hears about the advocacy but the other advocates.  It would be a study in Communications Control to see how they kept the survivor movement so insular.


Posted by Kay Ebeling
Producer City of Angels Blog since 2007
responding to nudges from angels still today


Friday, August 26, 2016

Judge got it right, just for wrong reason

I laughed out loud when I read this sentence in the judgment against SNAP yesterday

 "At no time have the SNAP defendants attempted to address their purported confidentiality concerns through other means beyond their repeated assertions of a nonexistent privilege," 

I laughed because "repeated assertions of nonexistent privilege" is all that SNAP is. For decades SNAP has been nothing more than the sentences they say in the news. There is NEVER anything more there. Survivors who've been trying to get past the obstruction that is SNAP to Prosecute the Bishops have known this for decades.

The people who run SNAP just showed up and superimposed themselves on a nascent victims' rights movement, and had all the resources they needed to take over. By the time survivors realized what SNAP was doing in their town, the damage had already been done. There Is No Survivor Movement Because of SNAP.  

Quote is from this story at Courthouse News Service in St. Louis


SNAP gives Survivors a Bad Name - once again

As if they are self destructing, now that damage control over the pedophile priest crisis is no longer needed, SNAP screws up royally once again: 
Judge sanctions advocacy group in Missouri clergy abuse suit
A federal judge has admonished an advocacy group for clergy abuse victims ... Xiu Hui “Joseph” Jiang the information the group deems confidential.
the end result is all survivors are put in this bad light. Once again, SNAP chooses to publicize a case that has no foundation, ignoring about 99,000 other cases that cry for public exposure, and ends up with horrible press, sanctioned by the Courts, and None of Us had anything to do with it. 
Still the result is all of us lose credibility
Gotta hand it to them, for counter intelligence- a support group to the public while defeating survivors behind the scenes- the people who run SNAP are really good at what they do


Wednesday, August 24, 2016

Cardinal Pell 2014 testimony is still here to watch

Kay Ebeling shared a memory.
2 mins
Hey John Brown remember this!?!?
The only place on Earth to watch last week's testimony in royal commission hearings is on John Brown's YouTube channel, embedded at City of Angels Blog, including footage of Cardinal Pell comparing the Catholic Church to a trucking company. Just want to make sure people realize, the Commission is not broadcasting these vids, nor is CNN. John Brown is doing this from his garage, I'm doing this from my one-room apartment. We are not a nonprofit creating jobs for ourselves while we control release of information. We are releasing it.…/video-australia-royal-…
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Posted by Kay Ebeling
Producer, City of Angels Blog
Not Just L.A., the city of angels is everywhere