I don't even know how to describe what happened in 2010, but as a result of the phone calls I was getting and stories I was being told, I ended up certain that SNAP is counter intelligence created to keep survivors from interacting with each other and comparing notes.
So I try to start something on Facebook and the same angry voices, people who are mad all the time, chime in and take over and destroy it. Just like what happened at the SNAP message board, just like what happened to my blog- because that's what happened in 2010, people so angry calling up and shouting at me about what SNAP did to them- and now I don't even know if those people were real… then it happened again with a Facebook group I started. As soon as I opened the group, these angry people started shouting at each other and those arguments dominated the group. No one else could get a word in edgewise.
Wish I could just be happy doing nothing. Why can't I just enjoy the sunshine and swimming in lakes and let the bishops do what they are going to do?
But I can't.
So I sit here wondering what to do next....
PS: This post does not make sense. i can see that now a few hours after posting it. I'm a little nuts these days. Truth is I've made a lot of friends who are survivors through Facebook and several have stayed with me through the weirdness with SNAP. I just get so down sometimes...
CLARIFICATION 2: In response to Shoebyte:
The reason I say this post makes no sense now:
In this post I say I have no support and can't find any other survivors, then I talk about all the survivors who are on Facebook that I communicate with. That's how I meant it doesn't make sense. And the SNAP stuff is still, to this day, very confusing for me... they are So Good at their public image, that now that I'm not doing research all the time and am just a member of the public, I'm starting to just see what SNAP puts out to the public, and they do make themselves look good, don't they. The stuff I wrote about in 2010 was the stuff I saw from the perspective of working full time on this blog and interviewing dozens of survivors around the country. It was the same stuff SNAP was trying to prevent me from seeing by trying to stop me from doing the blog at all. For background, read City of Angels 2 at http://cityofangels2.blogspot.com where I describe the whole shebang...